2012

It's been a … year. I have so many words I could use to complete that sentence. It has been a good year in many ways but also one of the worst and toughest ones of my life. Rock bottom was reached in several aspects of my life and my playlists have never been so depressing, never have I feared being alone more than this past year because that left me with just my thoughts and that's not a good thing. But I've also learned more than I ever have before. Realization upon realization has come over me and I now feel a lot more grown up, mostly because I realized how little I know. Especially about myself. But I've been working on that for a while now I feel like I've come a long way in knowing what I want, who I am at the moment and who I want to become, how I react and how I feel about things and people, what I truly care about and want out of life. Like I said, I've got a million miles to go but it's nice to have taken the first few steps away from the ignorant, insecure and unaware person I was before. And I can't believe all the amazing people I have close to me who care, support and help me. Learning about yourself is scary and rough! But truly, truly worth it. 

I've moved, changed jobs, not gone to Italy, made new friends, gone to America, played with Neo, hung out with my family, been unemployed and scared, forced take matters in to my own hands, taken scary medicine, had to make a whole lot of decisions, grow up, suffered several minor (they didn’t feel minor at the time) and one major heartbreaks. I've been envious and bitter, happy and content. All in all, it's been … year. 

Let's see what 2013 will bring. Let's hope it will be a little less eventful...