Forgive me

I’m not sure what’s going on really, but this last year seems to have been hard on a lot of people. Many have been hurt, had dreams and feelings crushed, struggled with knowing what to do, doubting things they’ve always believed in and so on. And I am definitely not excluded from this, in many ways this has been the most emotional, confusing and hardest years of my life. I’ve had to stand up for things I never believed I would have to which meant I really had to figure out what I want out of life, and that is not an easy thing to do when you have to make big sacrifices from the decisions you make. I’ve had to toughen up, take a stand, change, open my eyes, really feel and look inside myself, believe in things I can’t see right now… And yet, here I am, not much going right, I still have a very heavy heart, only dreaming of things I hoped would be reality now… But I still have hope and faith in the fact that things will turn around. I keep telling the people close to me that they will for them, and maybe this time I should listen to my own advice. But you have to forgive me for not quite being myself for the past year and also for the next few months or so. I’m just going through a little something…