Life is like a huge ocean right now and I’m stuck in the waves, just being pulled under, over and everywhere by it. Sometimes it’s great, amazing, exciting and fun but at other times it drowns me, blinds me and scares me. And the thing that is constant is that it’s never still or calm!
I have a lot of obligations right now in church, school (the hardest semester of my life is in front of me right now), work and besides that I’m trying to keep in touch with friends in 3 different countries, planning a million things that are happening soon (like my trip to the US, Italy, school for next semester and trying to find somewhere to live), institute, dating etc. And like I said, sometimes it’s great but often I only have the energy to do things half heartedly because I try so hard at everything instead of prioritizing the things I really, really have to do. Lack of sleep is often the result of my hectic lifestyle. The difference between have to and want to doesn’t really exist in my mind.
And like before, I’m not complaining because this way of life is very much my own choice, I’m just venting a little and trying to just organize my thoughts a little.
Anyways, one thing I am really looking forward to is the fact that my sister and nephew are coming here tomorrow!! How I love that little boy, he is the joy of my life and I can’t wait to wake up to his smiling face, ready to play!
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